The pressure's just killing me.  Two exams coming with my head still filled with the mumbo-jumbo of everything that goes on with my oh-so-busy life that it really makes me wonder if I can still hold on to keep smooth sailin' on my majors.  There's just so many things to do that sometimes I already have no idea on what I am doing with my life that's so effing wild that it feels as if I am on a runaway roller coaster heading straight down to hell...  And even when there's practically nothing to do on a certain day that is so unusual it feels as if there is so many things to do, and of course it bugs me the whole day thinking, panicking on what I am supposed to do when actually there's none...  But when I already thought that there was actually none that I need to do I realize that there is something that I was actually supposed to do but it is now too late because I'm sleepy and cranky and I have to wake up early the next morning 'cause I have class and it takes me two hours to travel from home to class, but there's no choice but to do what I have to do 'cause it's due the next morning, which really sucks because the day has just been put to waste with pointless thinking and panicking, but come to think of it it was not totally pointless 'cause there was really something to panic about.

I'm wishing half-wishing that I can finally take a break from everything.  From school, from work, from commitments, requirements, assignments, and responsibilities that takes forever to list on paper.  It's nerve-wrecking, I'm losing my mind, and now I am starting to hate Organic Chemistry which I really love but now I hate because it makes me mental...  But don't get me wrong I still love Chem it's just the pressure's just killing me.

Everything's killing me that even I would like to kill myself.